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Am I glad to be home? No. But I lie and tell everyone I am. I look forward to the time when I can come home on my own terms. When I need my green chile fix, or when it's a holiday, or there's some other special event going on over here worthy of a family gathering. Not because the semester's over and I'm being evicted.

It is officially my niece's birthday, though the party was yesterday. Kind of strange to think about where I was a year ago. Staying home alone all night because my dad was out of town and my mom when to help my sister while she was in labor. I had just finished my freshman year and I hated being home. I resented that staying in Portland hadn't even been an option. I don't quite hate being home this time. I just wish I were in Portland. I wish I were near friends. I do have friends here, but I haven't seen any of them yet. I saw a whole lot of family today. There were lots of good moments, but there were also some straining ones. Such as when I was asked if I'm glad to be back. And when everyone acted so overjoyed that I was "home." This is where my roots are, but home is Portland. I wish I had a house there to go with home.

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PayPal is not working, and this sucks. It hasn't been working for several days. Either that, or it manages to break just in time for me to try and use it. But it being broken means I can't pay for a new ISP, which I really need, because using AOL on my computer is both embarassing and frustrating. It randomly quit twice tonight and made me restart. Arg.

I need to eventually rant about OpenDiary and their TOS. Bastards.

The triumvirate of evil: Microsoft, AOL, and OD. Or maybe Wal-Mart in place of OD. Depends on whether you're talking about computer/internet related things only, or things in general.

On a random note, my niece's favorite letter seems to be "B."

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Sometimes dress shopping makes me realize just how large my chest really is. Some of them get to be a little bit of a challenge to zip up. Anyway. I got a new dress today. It's purple, and it's reversible. I also got the film that I finished off yesterday developed. Some of them apparently didn't come out. But I have the negatives, and I'm determined to have those pictures. They were taken in the dark, so maybe the guy just thought they were bad, or something.

In other news, AOL is a spiteful bitch. I can't sign up for another ISP at all while using it. Always some kind of connection failure. Lex suggested going to the AA library and using the computers there. Perhaps I shall do so tomorrow. I would really like to be able to use the web without silly restrictions.

The plan is to write something more reflective later. About kids and stuff.

I need to go to the post office tomorrow. I also should start using my bike soon. I would make the two events coincide, but I'm not quite sure where my helmet is, nor about biking on busy streets just yet.

And I should go so sleep soon, since I got up relatively early to go to the Frontier with my sister.