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I had people over to my house yesterday, for the first time ever. It was kind of spur-of-the-moment and slightly late (housemates were asleep), so we ended up sitting on the kitchen floor, as there were four of us and only two chairs in the kitchen. I drank most of a bottle of wine. I figured it would be a good idea to finish it off, since re-corking was not an option due to the fact that I managed to push the cork into the bottle instead of removing it.

This came about because I'd run into Eileen and her grandmother (who was waiting for a cab) and Rob again. We decided that it was still quite early and something should be done to pass the rest of the evening. So after hanging out around the co-op for a while, we called Meg, but she did not seem to be home. Time for new plans. I was all for getting drunk. And Eileen had to return something to Amos and get some things she'd left in his car, so it was decided that we would go get some alchol (beer for Rob, wine for me, and sake for the others) and migrate over into my area, since Rob lives in Wimbledon, I live across from it, and Amos lives across from it on another side. We stopped by at Meg and Kate's to say hello, then proceeded to my house. So it was a pretty nice evening, overall. I perhaps should have stopped after two (rather large) glasses of wine, but I didn't in the interests of finishing the uncorkable bottle. And that is why I really should share wine when I have it.

Take Me to the River

I leave so much unsaid. I feel like I'm reverting to the person I once was, who was so distant from everyone around her.

My first instinct is to become apathetic in order to deal with the craziness I see. This should be a selective process. I would benefit from pouring all that feeling of things being important into my studies. There are many things I cannot control, but my work is not one of those things. There is no need to hurt myself in any way in order to assert a sense of control. All that is required is to control what I can, and let the rest go.