Almost There!

Renn Fayre is tomorrow! Projects are already going up! This is exciting! I'm going to work on things tomorrow. There was blowing up of balloons today, which looked like fun, but I was intending to come home and do some work that I didn't do. I ended up talking with Kristina about music things for a while (I've pretty much decided to informally get a quartet together so that we don't have to be coached by Leila who has no concept of performance), and then came home and read a story (in several parts, ten to be exact) about music. And I read stuff about music today. And went to a concert of pieces written by the composition class. Hmm, I sense a theme to the day... I had actually been thinking about starting my own damn quartet anyway, because I really miss playing in a quartet, and I've been cured of any desire of signing up for it formally. I probably wouldn't get in again anyway, because my small problem with not playing out so much, especially when I'm playing alone is a psychological thing, no matter what Leila may think. (What the fuck does she know about performance? She's a musicologist. She studies music but doesn't play it.) I'm fine in a group situation, though. Anyway, she also has people play things way too slow. The Friday@Four performance of the Shostakovich 1 was excruciating to listen to because of that. So, yes, starting my own group. Good. I will not audition for Leila ever again. The next one would probably go even worse, because since that one I've developed insecurities about my playing. First of all, the way she handled things. It made me feel almost completely invalidated as a player. (But perhaps I should know better by now about trusting her opinions on things.) And then there was being placed within the section in orchestra in a subordinate position to someone who may play well but can't lead worth crap. Sorry, but if you're leading, you can't drop entrances, which she does a lot. You can do the catching up thing when you're not being counted on to know where the fuck you are, but when you're leading, you have to count and be ready for entrances. I don't care if you fall apart after that, but get the entrances so everybody knows where you are. Plus she rarely marks things (not that I'm good about that, but when I'm in a leadership position, I work on it), and makes no attempt at resolving bowing issues. And she does some really strange bowings; things that are opposite to what I thought were conventions. But anyway. Enough bitching.

Tomorrow is Renn Fayre!!!!!!!

And my room is clean! (That was my project for the day.)

Also, I ate an entire pint of Ben & Jerry's. I didn't set out to be a glutton. But there it is. I suppose it's okay, though, to do it once, and during a phase of lifting/carrying large or heavy things. Like large, unwieldy pieces of cardboard. And bags of bottles for recycling. (I helped take out the house recycling.)

I should go get clean, to match my room.

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I have gotten the most random songs stuck in my head today. "No Scrubs" earlier, and "76 Trombones" just now. Um...

Anyway, I'm finally done with that damn nine solutions lab. I really should have been able to finish it last week, because I went in at about 1:30 and was done by 3:00, which was when I had to leave Friday to go do DNA stuff. I was too flustered and in a hurry and stressed out then, though. Today, no stress, because tomorrow is Renn Fayre.

And ha! I have my shit together better than Leila thinks I do. I may have missed a bunch of classes, but I was still able to figure out what the readings were. And it's a manageable amount of stuff to catch up on. I also have to finish the stuff Nietzsche wrote about Wagner, so that I can actually talk about Wagner in the paper, because I'm apparently supposed to do that. I think I'll make it peripherally about Wagner, though, because I don't care to write about him. I'd rather talk about emotion in music, and performance (because that's one thing that seems to have been ignored in the class), and perhaps popular music. I think I specifically want to talk about emotion in performance. Or something. I've had some ephemeral thoughts about it before and after sleeping.

It's been a pretty nice day. Sunny earlier. Now the sky is doing that thing where it's white. Just the thinnest layer of cloud cover. The weather can follow the same patterns this weekend. I hope it does. Sunny in the day and just a bit of cloud cover Saturday night for Glo Opera (the moon will be one night past full) would be perfect. Clear Friday night, too. But who knows what will actually happen...

I think I'll do some work for about an hour before going off to get things for my costume.