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Impromptu Reunion
Jul. 17th, 2001 10:17 pmThis morning it was raining. Albuquerque had an identity crisis and thought it was Portland for a little while. Which made driving to work fun. The highway was backed up all the way to where I get on, which it normally isn't. Albuquerque drivers freak out when it rains. Work itself was boring, but a little more lively in the office than usual.
Afterwards, I came home to... a house full of family! There were quite a few relatives, including two babies - my niece and my cousin Vianne. When I came in, the two babies were talking to each other in a baby sort of way and touching feet. Vianne is huge! Granted, she is a few months older than Amelia, but aside from that, she's still big. And quite happy-go-lucky.
It seems that all sorts of people are coming to town, both friends and family. Makes things interesting.
Lately I've been feeling this kind of tension. Not an easy one to describe... It's like I'm somewhere between the blue-collar and white-collar work worlds, like I'm somehow part of both. And now I realize why. My roots are in the blue-collar, while I've grown up closer the white. Those are the sorts people I've gone to school with the longest. It's what's expected of me, and it's what I expect for myself, kind of. No corporate-whore jobs for me, I'm headed somewhere else. And I'm not sure I can get there in Albuquerque. I like it here and all, but at the same time, I want to get out and see things, and I can't really see a real future here. My roots are here, of course, and I can't ignore that, but that doesn't mean I have to stay here forever. The challenge is in finding a balance, and to find a way to stay connected with people I know from all sorts of places, and people from home who are dispersing.
Afterwards, I came home to... a house full of family! There were quite a few relatives, including two babies - my niece and my cousin Vianne. When I came in, the two babies were talking to each other in a baby sort of way and touching feet. Vianne is huge! Granted, she is a few months older than Amelia, but aside from that, she's still big. And quite happy-go-lucky.
It seems that all sorts of people are coming to town, both friends and family. Makes things interesting.
Lately I've been feeling this kind of tension. Not an easy one to describe... It's like I'm somewhere between the blue-collar and white-collar work worlds, like I'm somehow part of both. And now I realize why. My roots are in the blue-collar, while I've grown up closer the white. Those are the sorts people I've gone to school with the longest. It's what's expected of me, and it's what I expect for myself, kind of. No corporate-whore jobs for me, I'm headed somewhere else. And I'm not sure I can get there in Albuquerque. I like it here and all, but at the same time, I want to get out and see things, and I can't really see a real future here. My roots are here, of course, and I can't ignore that, but that doesn't mean I have to stay here forever. The challenge is in finding a balance, and to find a way to stay connected with people I know from all sorts of places, and people from home who are dispersing.
