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That nervous breakdown I figured I was headed for finally came at 3:30 this morning. It was brief, and then I slept for about three hours. And now in the cold gray morning, I can't say that everything suddenly seems more possible, but a a certain sort of apathy has sunk in. Things will probably be done to satisfaction, but so what if it isn't?

...but I still feel like shattering.

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Why the FUCK did I think it was such a great idea to be a bio major?

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I am fucking exhausted. I'll probably sleep well tonight. I hope so, because I'm crazy enough to want to get up and go to work (theater) at nine, though I got only three hours of sleep last night and my brain is fried from the o-chem midterm and finishing up the genetics take-home exam, which turned out to be half a page of absolute shit.

So, in the state I'm in, I was in no mood to go do genetics lab work, so I conveniently forgot about having to do so, even though I consulted with the lab partner who is also in my o-chem lab. We basically decided that no, genetics lab work is not going to happen today. So instead, I hung around the room connected to the o-chem lab wherein we print out NMR spectra and shot the shit about this morning's trauma with fellow o-chem people and a few who are also in genetics while waiting for the computers to function right and for my turn to print things to come up. I am so glad I have only one class tomorrow. Being a junior is so much fun!

Just installed Mozilla today. Haven't quite set it all up yet, though. But that will have to be a gradual process.

And now, I must soldier on, but not quite so frenetically.

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I've been so tired today that I've been randomly switching into German. Also, at lunch I had to get food from the bookstore, because I was out of cash and the fucking ATM was broken. And, orchestra sucks this year and I hate it. I'm not going to take it next semester. I don't want to go into the reasons right now. I pretty much want to just go home.