Schmoo

I was falling asleep a couple hours ago, but then I had a brownie. More wakeful now. I'd fallen asleep at six in the morning and gotten eight hours instead of the usual twelve hours of sleep. Then I shuffled around boxes of books and carried heavy things upstairs. Most of the stuff I have left to un pack is books, and I have no idea where I'm going to put them. Perhaps the specially treasured ones I'll cram into my room somehow, and others, like Thucydides and Garnsey & Saller will go into the attic, which is off my room anyway.

I found one item I'd been wondering as to the whereabouts of for a while: the little device by which to connect two phone lines into one jack. Now I can use the phone and internet in my room without having to crawl under the desk to switch between them.

Also found the Tarot Deck of Ambiguity, so named because it was in that box over there. (Yay Monty Python.) And Sarah should get back online so I can tell her that I found it before I forget.

Hmm. Just did a spread with the significator card as the two of swords. Neither happy nor unhappy, and wilfully blinded. That has been me for the past few months.

And now I am thinking about a Tolkien tarot, as Sarah is doing for her creative project.

This has turned out to be a lot of rambling. Blah.

Die! Lemma!

I've got an idea for a fanfic story. Does that mean I've gone over to the dark side? Or is that only if I actually write it? I don't know if I will, because I've got another idea for a story that has got to be a sign of depravity and should never see the light of day. (In fact, I should just stop thinking about it.)

The question on my mind now is which is better for quashing the second idea, writing on the first one or not? My usual pattern, unfortunately, is to ignore story ideas until they go away. That makes it harder to come up with them later. But perhaps there would be some value in indulging a bit, with the story idea that doesn't make me want to bleach my neurons, and then my brain will stop pestering me with both ideas. Or will it instead use that as leverage to get me to do both stories? Gah.

This was just not the optimum time for my creativity to go wild again. Not that it's a bad thing to be creative, there are just better ideas to have. But hey, my innate weirdness is showing itself again, and that's fun.