Changing Things
Jun. 17th, 2002 10:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sjesterI've started a new project: messing with the design/style of my LJ. As you can probably see, I'm in the middle of this. The colors need fixing, because in this layout, they're not so nice. (That green around the border has got to go.) And I want to change the color of the text. Lex will be in town this weekend, and we'll have some LJ-modifying fun. I might get some new userpics too. Depends on what I find, I suppose.
I'm also thinking that I want to actually get serious about learning HTML and making a webpage. That a project from last summer that never quite materialized.
But really, I want to do stuff, to know that feeling of my brain going fifty thousand miles a minute again. I've had enough of the summer doldrums. I also want to figure out what I want to be doing a couple years from now, once I've graduated from Reed. I know that I don't want to be a corporate whore. Or anyone's whore. I want to be doing my own thing, but specifically what that is needs to take shape. Do I want to write? Or do something science-related? Or both? Maybe both, because I'm not sure I would be able to write enough things to be able to support myself consistently. There are a lot of unwritten stories rotting in the back of my brain, and I'm not sure they'd all come back. I'm also afraid the creative impulse itself is rotting in my brain. I could probably make stories out of my waking nightmares. What uplifting reading that would be.... Another question is would that be my whole life? No, I'd probably be doing other things as well. It's a bit taxing to be one thing for too long. I like to have several things I can switch between, cycle through. It's probably a bit healthier too, to not become obsessed with just one thing, but to have several things I can divide obsessive impulses between. But not so many that I wear myself out, because I can't do anything half-assed and with a clear conscience.
It feels good to once again have the time to lead a contemplative life. I need to figure out how to achieve this even while in the thick of things at Reed.
I'm also thinking that I want to actually get serious about learning HTML and making a webpage. That a project from last summer that never quite materialized.
But really, I want to do stuff, to know that feeling of my brain going fifty thousand miles a minute again. I've had enough of the summer doldrums. I also want to figure out what I want to be doing a couple years from now, once I've graduated from Reed. I know that I don't want to be a corporate whore. Or anyone's whore. I want to be doing my own thing, but specifically what that is needs to take shape. Do I want to write? Or do something science-related? Or both? Maybe both, because I'm not sure I would be able to write enough things to be able to support myself consistently. There are a lot of unwritten stories rotting in the back of my brain, and I'm not sure they'd all come back. I'm also afraid the creative impulse itself is rotting in my brain. I could probably make stories out of my waking nightmares. What uplifting reading that would be.... Another question is would that be my whole life? No, I'd probably be doing other things as well. It's a bit taxing to be one thing for too long. I like to have several things I can switch between, cycle through. It's probably a bit healthier too, to not become obsessed with just one thing, but to have several things I can divide obsessive impulses between. But not so many that I wear myself out, because I can't do anything half-assed and with a clear conscience.
It feels good to once again have the time to lead a contemplative life. I need to figure out how to achieve this even while in the thick of things at Reed.
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Date: 2002-06-18 02:46 pm (UTC)